im so happy.

i went swimming today with carlos, kamron and maritza. im so happy i got to see her! i missed her so much, you don't even know. after we went to qcup and ate. ah, HAPPY DAY!

food maxx.

tonight, im going to spend some time with my family. we bought some good ol chocoalte milk, and yummeh ice cream. we rented movies from Red Box, like The Grudge 3, A Haunting Evil and Bed Time Stories. BUT WE JUST FOUND OUT THAT WE FORGOT THE MOVIES IN THE CART. i hope they go back and get them because we can get charged for whoever took it and doesn't return them! =/ hopefully this night turns our ok ..

Public Base Learning DAY=]

TODAY WAS SO MUCH FIN, I SAW BERNICE AND HER BOYFRIEND TODAY. HE'S REALLY NICE AND i love them together. i wish we could have kicked it longer but apparently we all already had other things to do. at first the pbl was boring but then everything turned out GREAT. things have been going along famously. i been kickin it with so much people lately. WE GOT TO EAT PIZZA, AND WE GOT SERVICE LEARNING HOURS. YAY. that makes me a happy camper. vivian visited us today, it was so good to see her! me and chelsea took a MOOSE pic! RE UNITE, i love her. OMG, but there was so much drama with the Prometheus family -_-!
BUT I WORE DRUNK GOGGLES TODAY. SUPER COOL. TODAY WAS GREAAAAAT! after pbl mama picked us up roxanne a, came along. we went to tap ex and there was hella guys staring at us and shit. lol gay. then me roxanne and aiza went to there HELLA GHETTO bathroom all tagged up, super coolio. LOL. looks hella dirty thou. then we went home. YAY. fun fun fun.

PBL.

today was so fun! i kicked it with jasmin, and today we been working on the PBL like the whole day! after school i was so hyper, so me and jasmin decided to do a little "project" we went around the whole entire school AFTER school and asked so many people for one pair of there shoes and they trust us =] it's so funny because even mr. lydon participated in this project, SO MANY PEOPLE DID. and then after we got to me in a movie. lol, i can't even explain my day it was so fun, and tomorrow we get to present our PUBLIC BASIC LEARNING work =] im excited as well because jasmin is sleeping ovaa heo yeah!
GOOD DAY.

sadly.

i haven't posted a blog in ages because i been so busy, but im at jasmins house right now, when we 're supposed to be doing work. but instead we're reminiscing and venting about everything. we were supposed to go to the dmv but that didn't happen. and now she's being gay and watching me typeeee. :) everything has been so stressful this past week, i can't wait til summer! jasmin isss one of my closest friends AGAIN =] OH YEAH, and we MADE THE DANCE TEAM! we're cute. LOL. but there's sme people who totally shouldn't be on it. tsk, ohhwell. can't wait til next season. well, gotta go do nothing. ttyl. MISSED YA BLOG.

DANCE TRYOUTS.

so yesterday was finally the day when we had dance tryouts. i was so nervous at first but when i began to dance everything went so smooth! im so happy that i didn't mess up, because there's this pencil spin that i can never get right, but yesterday i finally did it! i am confident that the certain people made the team, hopefully if we make it. this season will go FANTASTIC! if i make it this year, that will be 2 years in a row :) im aiming 4. i really hope jasmin makes it though because it will be so fun! after dance, me , jasmin, aiza, and kiki went to the hub. first Ulta then to Qcup, aiza treated. THANK YOU AIZA, and we had q pop chicken and a crepe. you could say we ate it less than i minute. lol, and of course jasmin took all of the skin, like usual. haaha, ahh. anyways off topic won
t get into detail but .. things settled in, and it's nice to know who your true friends are.

dance dance confusion?

3 days of cliniques and so far not many kids have it down after 3 hours of practice each day, they constantly make the same mistakes, but i surely can't blame them, it's an incredibly hard routine and i hope i do good Friday! a tad bit nervous, but it's all goood. anyways, my day was okay, except lunch i totally forget to go to ms. shahs class then i remembered mackelle helped me with my paper thing. thank thank you. 'TURD' sweep today. lol, there fun. ONLY when you know that it's the right day. haaha, i texted joyce and ashley to make sure they won't be late, because they're the MAIN 2 who a;ways arrive 'on time'. lol. ahh, it was okay today. nothing outta the ordinary.

=)

Dance Cliniques.

Tres tres tres amustante! i had a blast, despite the fact that my knee is acting up again, and i can't even cross my legs. the dance is tres difficile. but we got this shart on lockdown ^-^

Welcome to the Mvals./happy anniversary.

HAPPY 15 MONTHS BOO! I LAHVE YOU SO MUCH! =] && I am so proud of my track team! Relay got third place! you dnt realize how good that is!
and Tyeshia, boy she blew me away by getting FIRST PLACE IN THE 400! i told her she could :) someone didn't listen! neenerneenernener! haha, but it was so fun yesterday, and angie got third place for the 800! she passed that girl up in the last 100 we were all so proud of her! and the relay did another fantastic job with the 4x400! and especially jazz, jeff, joseph. everyone. i had such a blast yesterday hanging out with Adam, Ashley and they otha homeboy, sorry i forgot your name :) ahh, i'm going to miss everyone. but we're all going to have a banquet that our coaches are throwing for us, so yay! i LOVE LOVE LOVE you guys!

sexual reduction, lol

so today, i had track but i didn't do much today. i've decided to sign up for football, oh yeah.
in computers today, we played halo .. well atleast i tried to but our teacher caught two other kids playing and they got in hella trouble so we stopped. almost got caught but we're to slick. =)
it was super funny yesterday because for like 5 straight minutes me and ashley were having a conversation then she kept saying "TO WHAT" which sounds like TWAT, when you say it fast. and i was like, HAAHA, ASHLEY! DO YOU KNOW WHAT THAT MEANS?! then she hella paused looking at me like i was a freak and finally said, OH HAHAHAHAHA! OMG YOU THINK IM SAYING TWAT! HAHAH, dude, we were laughing for dayysssss, and we were even talking about it today! LOL. life's good sometimes.

im so tired.

i don't even feel like blogging, but i'll just say today was a good day.

simple day.

SO , we started swim in pe today. it was gooood. except for the the whole after change part. but jasmin helped me so it was all good. practice was okay, didn't stay for long because i THOUGHT i had dance practice! apparently that didn't end up happening. i asked my pa to pick me up. i talked to Davajana for a good 15 minutes. then finally went home and started on the homework. after that, aiza brian and me went to the HUB, target, Qcup FUN. i like the conversations we have. about Y2k and what not. after, when we went back to Target for baby wipes dean was in the other isle and hella SCREAMED to scare us! HAAAHA, who does that? thenn BOOM, ryan, Rachel , dolfo pooooped up. oh and i saw my cousins there too. YAY. after the walk home, and thew about 10 pennies at brian. then started talking about Mythbusters and malcolm in the middle hahah. it was fun today. better than i expected.

todays the day

Happy mother's day mama. i think mom's should be treated special everyday instead of all being the most loved one day a year. going to go to the hub to buy her something giggidy. i love my mommy.

overrated.

everyone wants a tail now. dude, try something new.

keep the love moving.

i have mad love for my track team, and i know that after the season things will be somewhat detached. hopefully we all stay connected because i grew accustom to all of you. we had our laughs, drama moments. but im glad i got to share these unforgettable moments with you all. we all shared something in common. we all hated our coach with a deep satisfaction. it breaks my heart to know things won't be the same. especially how maybe some of us won't be coming back. i hope we can all keep in touch because our friendship is bittersweet to go to waste. i had such a great experience this season that i will never forget. but until 2010, i will be expecting to see my babies again.

destruction.

This was not the best birthday, but like others say, the older you get same goes for birthdays. i can't expect much. but, to all of those who made the effort in making my birthday hell of a lot better, i want to thank you so much and let you know how much i appreciate you all. today was not the brightest day. but to know that i still have some love from you guys beats the worst. thank you Guia for making me e cute C poster. and Abby for putting that sign on your back. Joyce for the letter which i had not read yet, and for coming to SweetTomatoe. Tyeshia and Shlay for the wonderful poster which that picture i look like a turd. Mackelle for the really cute shirt which i will wear asap in spite to the appreciation i have for you. And to all the people who said happy birthday. it means so much! But last but not least, Aiza and Brian .. i do thank you guys too. for taking me out today. Kamron, for the 8 bucks. i did not have the best today because some people were to busy for me, they could not make it or they had practice. my track team. i'm sorry i left, tyeshia told me you guys were coming but i already had to leave. i love you guys. what i do without ALL of the people listed. oh and thank you so much computer class for clapping when i walked in the classroom, that truly made me happy and especially how joyce and ashley started the birthday song. Fuck, i have the love of a mad man for you all!
P.s, -Happy Birthday Donovan Cruz, we're TWINS ;)

the last track meet @ Tak against American.

aso today in fourth block i needed to cut my nails and Ashley let me use hers because she totally brings nail clippers to school ;) it was super funny because Joyce hella cut my nails for me!! then my teacher came to our area and was like what is that shit? because me nails were all over the table! gross right? haha, it is super funny! Joyce even had to stand up to cut my nails because they were super long and thick, jazam. before track, i got in fucking trouble for calling a stupid teacher who deserved it a faggot. im pissed that he's getting me in trouble when he thinks he's the shit, shit.
finally at the meet, i was on varsity shot put. didn't place anything though, i only got trained YESTERDAY because that's when my coach decided that he wants me to be on shot. i didn't perform in any running events, and JV 100 yard dash ninjas were SLOWW i heard! WOW. the guy writing down the results was hella mean. jerk.
got a ride home from tyeshia. im in a really bamf mood right now. i don't really have much love for my birthday tomorrow. so bye. but i am happy that my step dad gave me some chocolate <3

this balloon stands for, 'party over here'!

track practice was definitely better than yesterdays because my track boys cheered me up by a land slide. coach milo was talking to me about doing shot put and discus and we practiced today and apparently i'm doing it tomorrow at our last meet?! EXCITING. it's my first time, and he calls me a natural. so flattering. he's the best coach ever and i love him to death. im so upset that he's leaving us this month moving to Sacramento and he won't be coming back next year unless he wins the lotto! hopefully he does. after, he dropped me and Laveena home, and my family was waiting in the car. we went to a party in Newark. more like a get together. STILL FUN. they had such a cute cute dog!!!! omg. and this kid named Matthew who is SUPER FUNNY. i love him a bunch =)
so now im home .. going to rest and talk to the boyfriend. rest up for our last meet.
THEN MVALS.
oh, i almost forgot. thanks Tino for stucking up for me when Chism was abt to hurt me! hehe. and Tyessshiaaaa for buying me a disgusting doughnut. LOL. jk.

horrible.

track practice indeed killed ..

until tomorrow.

hmh, at last, the day has come to another finish. it was a swell day. went to work our with kaddy that was probably the highlight. actually the part where i got to talk to the love of my life all day. but he fell asleep and is now to sleepy to talk i'm assuming. but i guess it is time for me as well to count some sheep. brand new day of school tomorrow, im just not excited for the after show .. so im glad i have practice. enough for today, let's catch up on some shut eye.
good night america.

ps. i love you.

im sorry for my assumptions baby, you do so much for me and i wish i can find some extravagant way to show you how i truly appreciate what you do for me these past 15 months. you're so amazing and i have never in my life been treated this way. you leave me speechless every time i hear those three letter words. you make my heart rush to the sound of your voice, you leave me nothing but butterfly's each and every moment i see your dazzling face. you make me smile whenever you give those two thumbs up jokes; your ironic personality keeps me sane. one last fact you need to know is i'm going to keep loving you as long as my heart keeps beating.

let us get physical.

let's call this morning a soothing one. i woke up daydreaming of my dream boy, my knight in shining armor as you can say. im hoping i will be able to work out with some people who are actually willing to! i wish he was here so we can work out together, because i am aware of how much dedication he his holding and he can motivate me as well. it's not that easy to migrate to new people who don't necessarily have the same interests as you. agree? i really want a beach house when i grow older because it will be nice to catch the ocean breeze once in awhile. i want to be able to run carelessly in the sand while the wind swings through my hair slaps my face. i want to be able to wake up to him for the rest of my life which is always planned. boy, i have a wild imagination.

emotionally challenged,

1:37, i feel so ignorant crying right now .. i just feel so heartbroken when we hung up. i guess it's just one of those days where the breakdown comes through and you just want to talk forever. i wish he knew. he doesn't realize how i feel right now, because his cause of sleepiness drags him to oblivion in which my words he can't quite capture. i wish he knew. leaving me awake in the dreary night leaves me to space where i can only now wait until sunrise to hear his voice again, i wish he knew. the call is what gives me the joy but from when time comes to an end, it's when everything does as well. it's times like these when i have to suck and it up and say, wait til' the morning, don't tell him what happened. and wish him a good morning.

easy like a, Saturday morning?

it's the little things that get to me. we didn't go to church this morning, very strange apparantly because we always attend church. except for the past 3 weeks ..started off with a good morning jasmin slept over from the horrible drama last night. we talked through had a little farts and laughs. ate breakfast. sesame chicken w/ rice and tobascco. perfect combination to spice up the morning. we talked forever, and ended up falling asleep to a god 2 3 hours. jesse and kamron are here, but i can't go our right now. zee, she' gone now. im thinking about the pacquiao fight tonight, of course he's going to demolish mayweather. later.

speechless.

so much happened today .. confidential.